You better reconsider your relationship with loved ones, it shouldn't be in the way of your relationship with God. Yeshua said in Matthew 10:37( NKJV) , “He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me.” Keep this in mind and avoid extremes.
We need to overcome the false guilt that makes us people pleasers rather than God pleasers and we have to stop letting people blaming us. Enough is enough! God Himself does not want us to çonstantly feel guilty, but people push us to feel so. Enough is enough! We need to lift our eyes up to haven and see ourselves liberated siting at the right hand of God!
(c) Boris Grisenko, spring prayer retreat 2018